I’d like to introduce you to today’s song by Cheryl Wheeler, but I feel that I am
Unworthy
I’ve struggled with depression and anxiety my entire life. My mid-twenties were a particularly difficult time. I graduated college, left an unsatisfying job, and moved to another city but didn’t know what to do next. The pressure to “grow up,” get a good job, fall in love, and settle down was real. Yet, I also hadn’t confronted the struggles of my childhood or come to terms with who I really was. I felt like I needed to get myself “out there” professionally and socially, when all I really wanted to do was be alone.
Around this time, I attended a lot of folk festivals. The bill almost always included singer-songwriter Cheryl Wheeler. Wheeler can be fantastically cranky while performing and clarifyingly direct in her lyrics (listen to “If It Were Up to Me” for a great example). When I heard the song “Unworthy,” although it is comical, it really spoke to my anguish. The lyric “no matter what I’m doing, I should certainly be doing something else” spoke to me. I can’t say that this song saved my life, but it did give me a laugh, and nudge me in the right direction.
2019 Blogging A to Z Challenge – A Song and a Story
A: Always on My Mind
B: Baby Come Back and Baker Street
C: Cheek to Cheek
D: Don’t Worry, Be Happy and Doctor Jones
E: Everyday Sunshine
F: Fly Me to the Moon
G: Ghost Town
H: Hobo Humpin’ Slobo Babe
I: If I Were John Carpenter
J: Jungle Strut and Justified & Ancient
K: Kiss
L: Loaded
M: Marble Halls and My Moon, My Man
N: New York, New York
O: Oliver’s Army
P: The Parting Glass
Q: Qué Onda Guero
R: Rave On
S: The Servant Song
T: Thing of Beauty
If you want to read more, check out my previous Blogging A to Z Challenges:
- 2016: A journey through my neighborhood of Jamaica Plain in Boston.
- 2017: A spontaneous photograph each day.
- 2018: Watched and reviewed documentary movies.
And dig deep into Panorama of the Mountains, by checking out my:
- Book Reviews
- Movie Reviews
- Beer Reviews
- Music Reviews and Writing
- City Stories, expository writing about my experiences in various cities
And, if you like Doctor Who, I have a whole ‘nother blog where I review Doctor Who stories across media: Epic Mandates.
Sorry you’ve felt that way. Know it too well. I’m glad you found that something that clicked with you.
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